Magic Yellow School Bus

 I was just sitting watching the school bus drop off all the children at the stop sign… and I couldn’t help but think 🤔 damn.. I miss my babies!! Yes they are still in my life but….

Anyone that truly knows me, knows my whole adult life consisted of working working working but being there for someone else like my grandma I was always there for her, my mom she was always right there she’d find the way for us and I’d work to pay for it, my kids being a full time single mom to my kids and now honestly I’m not looking for attention I’m lost and haven’t found my way yet.. why you ask? Because my grandma is dead she doesn’t need me anymore , my mom decided to live with my brothers now, she doesn’t need me anymore and my kids are grown doing their own thing.. so just like In this moment right now…

I’m alone with what purpose?? They say everyone has one ☝️ so why can’t I find mine? Ita lonely as hell once your not needed anymore… 

And the hardest part is not being able to rewind and get those moments back.. your just stuck tryna figure out your next move… 

For real don’t judge someone with mental illness of any kind whether it be a disability, anxiety, depression or whatever because you never truly know what someone is feeling or thinking 🤔 you never really know how hard it is for them to wake up put their feet on the floor and not battle everyday life but battle their self and their own thoughts to be able to make it another day and 9/10 of them aren’t fighting to stay for themselves their fighting to stay for you.. just think about that for a while…

With that being said imma lay in my lonely bed and take a nap.. if you don’t like what I’ve said delete yourself … if your someone that understands thank you 

And all of you I love you …

Have a great day!!!

April Fools  . April Michelle